Big Adventures and Small Steps

We are moving. I know we just moved (across country, I might add), but this time, we are moving and staying.

Currently, we are going through the process of buying a house. A terrifying endeavor with so much math involved that my head wants to explode. Just to add on top, we are also expecting a baby in June of this year, so to build up the timeline a tad - moving in March/April, new baby in June. Sound hectic? Well, I’m not quite done. I’m also graduating from college this year with my bachelor’s degree in Creative Writing. When, you might ask? August. Let’s pull that timeline back out and add this to it - moving March/April, new baby in June, graduation in August.

For some, this might seem easy; I mean, everything is a few months apart. For others, this might stress them out as much as it stresses me out. I have anxiety when it comes to new things, which, for me, means that the most terrifying and nerve-wracking things happening to me are some of the smaller issues on the agenda. (Okay, buying a house is not small, but when you compare it to literally having a baby that you will care for a raise…. it seems a little less grand and expansive) But I’m terrified about the new house and terrified about my graduation. Why? Because I don’t know how to handle either of them.

I’m trying, though, to have confidence in myself, my partner, and the love and care we have for each other. Without that, I don’t know where I would be or what I would be doing, but it probably wouldn’t be writing in Minnesota, with a house that we own and a small lovely family.